Long day

Cal has had a fever since Wednesday night. Today I finally decided to take him to the er because he was starting to sound a little raspy and was still acting sick. They gave him a nasal swab and a chest x-ray. The chest x-ray was hard to watch because they had to strap him into this contraption and I had to hold his arms above his head. Poor little guy just cried and cried he was so scared :(. Everything came back fine and the doc said that he probably just has a viral infection which they can't do anything for. He said to just keep his fever down and give him motrin every 6 hours and to bring him back if he gets worse. To top off everything when I was coming downstairs with Cal this morning I tripped and really hurt my toe trying to keep from falling. Luckily I didn't fall but my toe is killing me. I think I might have broken it. What a day :(

His restraint looked similar to this

Oh, little guy weighed 21lbs 14oz.

Unconditional Parenting Chapters 5+

I finished reading UP awhile ago and I just now have a chance to write about it. The first few chapters where difficult to get through because it is such a "culture shock" for lack of a better term. Now that I've read the whole book I am completely IN LOVE with it! I love how the author including so much research to back up his philosophies. I am so happy that I read this book.

THESE are the videos they should make you watch in the hospital!

When I had Calvin there were a bunch of videos that every new mom is required to watch before leaving the hospital. Shaken baby syndrome, how to bathe a baby, carseat safety etc. WHY doesn't that carseat safety video include anything like this? If they would show these videos in the hospital and/or in birthing classes it could save a lot of babies. Just had to vent about this somewhere. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=psmUWg7QrC8    GREAT video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q8gU9zzCGA8     If this wouldn't make people think nothing would

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZWKm7SenDHU        

I am so glad for WTE and BBC. I probably would have never heard the term "extended rear facing" if it wasn't for those groups. I'm so glad I did and so glad that I researched it when I realized it was a term I wasn't familiar with. 

Continued diaper sewing attempts

So far I've sewn a total of 4 diapers. I have gotten better with each try but they are still far from perfect. I have tons of fabric to make more including tie dye, space monsters, and light blue plaid :)

Happy 1st Birthday Calvin!!

February 16, 2010 @ 8:17pm
9lbs 7.6oz, 21in long

Calvin turned one on February 16th! I just can't believe how time has flown! We had his party the 17th at The Skate Place. It went great. John's mom came and brought all his siblings except Marky. Nanna and Chase; Mommaw and Norm; Grandma Walter; Mom; Debbie; Jen and BJ; uncle Jack; Shelly and the two oldest boys; Gale and Terry; Melissa and the kids; Tami, Charlie, Kurt, Cierra & Kaylee; Hayley, Amy & Hunter; John's aunt Diane; and Kiki came too. I was very surprised and honored that Kiki stopped by even with all she is going through right now. Overall it turned out great.

First Ultrasound-Aug 2009

Mommy and Calvin

Under the bili-light

Ready to go home

Birthday cake

Messy boy

Cal and uncle Ron

RIP Fuz

So after the big blowup mess with Sam and Scott on Monday I didn't think things could get much worse. Boy was I ever wrong. I had taken Calvin to stay at Mommaw's because I needed to get away from Sam. We went to bed around 2 or 3am after talking with Mommaw for a long time and trying to get Cal to sleep in a new place. Around 7:20 my phone rings and I see that Kiki is calling. I answered and she is crying. Fuz died in his sleep. He was only 27 and had a wife, 3 kids, and so many loving family members. I was totally shocked as was everyone else. It's been a week now and I still can't stop thinking about it. I feel almost guilty for being upset, like I don't have a right to be because I wasn't close to him. I feel like it is an insult to those that were close to him to admit that I'm upset about it. I don't know why I over-think these things so much. I just keep thinking about what his wife, parents, brother, sisters, and kids must be going through. Life just isn't fair :(

Good Riddance!

Lots going on lately. I will start with what happened first.

Well the s*** finally hit the fan last Monday. I had known since soon after Sam met Scott that he smoked. She tried to hide it from me thinking I bought her story that they liked to "go on walks" in 20 degree weather. Yea, like I'm that stupid. She asked me to stop at the gas station Sunday night so Scott could "pick something up". I knew what this something was so when he went inside I looked at her and said "I know what he is buying". She decided to play dumb and said "what?" I said "I know what he is buying I'm not stupid." She acted like a deer caught in headlights. For the rest of the night and all day the next day she acted like nothing had happened. The next night after I took John to work I was sitting in the living room on the couch when I saw that Sam had posted new facebook pictures. One of them she had her head right against his and he had a cigarette in his mouth. I have no idea what she was thinking posting a pic like that knowing how I feel about smoking or being around smoking when you're pregnant. I commented on the picture "way to give your baby birth defects Sam."

Long story short Scott comes downstairs, goes and has a cigarette, then comes inside and confronts me. He got mouthy and was being an asshole. He said "want me to get my shit and leave?" HAHAHA! Way to give me an opening! I told him to get his shit and get out. Sam was gone the next day. How's that for showing how much she cares about her family? Choosing a guy she has been with for a couple months over her sister? And just because I told him to get out. He wasn't supposed to be staying here anyway which I had repeatedly told her. She didn't even come talk to me about it like the "adult" she thinks she is. I sent her a final facebook message and told her how I feel (not nicely at all). I want nothing more to do with her after this. I'm sick of being used and hurt.