Monday, February 21, 2011

Happy 1st Birthday Calvin!!

February 16, 2010 @ 8:17pm
9lbs 7.6oz, 21in long
Calvin turned one on February 16th! I just can't believe how time has flown! We had his party the 17th at The Skate Place. It went great. John's mom came and brought all his siblings except Marky. Nanna and Chase; Mommaw and Norm; Grandma Walter; Mom; Debbie; Jen and BJ; uncle Jack; Shelly and the two oldest boys; Gale and Terry; Melissa and the kids; Tami, Charlie, Kurt, Cierra & Kaylee; Hayley, Amy & Hunter; John's aunt Diane; and Kiki came too. I was very surprised and honored that Kiki stopped by even with all she is going through right now. Overall it turned out great.
First Ultrasound-Aug 2009

Mommy and Calvin
Under the bili-light
Ready to go home

Birthday cake
Messy boy
Cal and uncle Ron


So after the big blowup mess with Sam and Scott on Monday I didn't think things could get much worse. Boy was I ever wrong. I had taken Calvin to stay at Mommaw's because I needed to get away from Sam. We went to bed around 2 or 3am after talking with Mommaw for a long time and trying to get Cal to sleep in a new place. Around 7:20 my phone rings and I see that Kiki is calling. I answered and she is crying. Fuz died in his sleep. He was only 27 and had a wife, 3 kids, and so many loving family members. I was totally shocked as was everyone else. It's been a week now and I still can't stop thinking about it. I feel almost guilty for being upset, like I don't have a right to be because I wasn't close to him. I feel like it is an insult to those that were close to him to admit that I'm upset about it. I don't know why I over-think these things so much. I just keep thinking about what his wife, parents, brother, sisters, and kids must be going through. Life just isn't fair :(

Good Riddance!

Lots going on lately. I will start with what happened first.

Well the s*** finally hit the fan last Monday. I had known since soon after Sam met Scott that he smoked. She tried to hide it from me thinking I bought her story that they liked to "go on walks" in 20 degree weather. Yea, like I'm that stupid. She asked me to stop at the gas station Sunday night so Scott could "pick something up". I knew what this something was so when he went inside I looked at her and said "I know what he is buying". She decided to play dumb and said "what?" I said "I know what he is buying I'm not stupid." She acted like a deer caught in headlights. For the rest of the night and all day the next day she acted like nothing had happened. The next night after I took John to work I was sitting in the living room on the couch when I saw that Sam had posted new facebook pictures. One of them she had her head right against his and he had a cigarette in his mouth. I have no idea what she was thinking posting a pic like that knowing how I feel about smoking or being around smoking when you're pregnant. I commented on the picture "way to give your baby birth defects Sam."

Long story short Scott comes downstairs, goes and has a cigarette, then comes inside and confronts me. He got mouthy and was being an asshole. He said "want me to get my shit and leave?" HAHAHA! Way to give me an opening! I told him to get his shit and get out. Sam was gone the next day. How's that for showing how much she cares about her family? Choosing a guy she has been with for a couple months over her sister? And just because I told him to get out. He wasn't supposed to be staying here anyway which I had repeatedly told her. She didn't even come talk to me about it like the "adult" she thinks she is. I sent her a final facebook message and told her how I feel (not nicely at all). I want nothing more to do with her after this. I'm sick of being used and hurt.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

My cloth diapering journey

I've been wanting to write about my cloth diapering "adventure" for awhile now but just never had the time. I was extremely interested in using cloth from the minute I saw gdiapers. They seemed so cute and awesome that I was convinced I was going to use them. For some reason I didn't think to look up other brands. I was just stuck on gdiapers. The problem was the start up cost. I couldn't figure out how I was going to afford it. Plus I was afraid that I wouldn't like it and would waste my money. I ended up getting 3 size small gdiapers but I didn't get any inserts. I wanted my baby shower invitations to say "no disposable diapers" but since it was planned pretty much without my say in anything that didn't happen. A lot of people knew through word of mouth that I planned on using cloth so I got a  bunch of gerber prefolds, pins, and plastic pants. If only good cloth diapers were actually available in stores
With the money I got from my babyshower I bought some medium gdiapers and some gflapper inserts. I started trying them on him around 2 months old because he was so big.
They didn't work well at all for breastfed poo. I started to use them a lot by the time he was around 4 months old. When he was 6 months old I got some kawaiis and I've been doing full time cloth ever since.

So far my favorite diapers have been sunbabys but I really like all of the diapers I have for different reasons. He is getting some alvababys for his birthday and I can't wait to try them. Overall most people were very negative when I said I wanted to cloth diaper but I will never regret my decision for a second. I really can't understand why anyone would use disposable if they knew how easy cloth diapering really is. For a few hundred dollars I can diaper all the kids I will ever have and all I have to do is do a couple extra loads of laundry a week. Totally worth it to me! Plus cloth is sooo cute! Now Kiki and Samii are both pregnant and both plan to use cloth and I couldn't be more excited. I love the idea of not being the only one around here that uses them!